A really close friend of mine has been having trouble dealing with a resent instant that she could have stopped.... even thought she has nothing to do with the problem she is still betting herself up about it.... she knows that I'm really good at keeping things to myself but sometimes i worry that I'm giving her the wrong advice. or maybe not enough advice.... i no that she is a great friend and would do anything for anyone i just wished that i knew exactly what to say to her... she has always been there for me and i just want to do the same for her... i just hope that the advice that i give her she will take to heart because it wasn't her fault and there was nothing that she could of done different.

life is so crazy right now i just don't no what to talk about so ill write more next week when everything isn't so crazy

Y is it that when someone that is so close to u and you know the better side of them and their potential that they can become and what they used to be... that they disappoint u almost every time.... for example they walk in the door u expect them to sit and talk to the one person that they haven't meet yet or sit there and talk to to one that they r supposed to love..... but they turn around and walk out ........would rater sit in an empty house then sit in a full house listening to people that love them.... they sit there and yell at u while u stare back at them thinking of the relationship that you used to have... a relationship that will never be again.... u sit up at night wandering if ur relationship that u once had with that person will ever be somewhat normal again...... but then u realize that ur living in a memory that will never be again..... u sit there thinking about how u can improve ur self so maybe they will notice u more then they want that........ but then the reality sits in and u finally realize that u can never change them and never will..... that they have to want to change in order for it to happen...... u talk to people about them and ask there option but all they do is say that u r to hard on them and that some of this is ur fault..... then in ur mind u start to think that maybe if it never happened then it would just be the same.....the memory of our past relationship and what was still runs throw my head every time u get this way........ and the hope of what was and what could be keeps us driving to the very end i no u can beat this so if u love us the way u say that u love us then u will change for us....

i hate people that judge others even when they don't no them i wish people would just give me a chance instead of just giving me a look and talking behind my back they ALWAYS think that I'm the weird one..... when they don't even give me a chance to explain what it is that i was trying to say... they always ignore me and look the other way like i have leprosy or something....................................... DO ME A FAVOR AND GIVE ME A CHANCE I MAY NOT BE THE PERSON YOU THINK I AM..... even the ones that think they are nice no me... look again your not

good...week

this past week was amazing because i turned 18 and a REALLY good friend of mine that i haven't seen or talked to in five years called me up on my birthday and we are going to hang out this weekend...... i cant wait.... and all the drama that i have been lately has slowed down alot.... so in all there is nothing really new

In any highschool that you go to no matter if its the east coast or the south... in every grade there is wat we lable the popular group, the goths, druggies, thew specail needs group, and so on........ in each group there is a bully, a loud mouth, a drunk, a shy one, the loser, and there is that some one in every group that everyone forgets about unless they want advice from that one person.... there is that one person that acts like they are ok but they are really not... they act like nothing can get to them like they are untouchable... but in side all they want is for that one person to just relate to them....they feel like they are the only one out there that can be strong for there friends and for the self.... why is it that in every group there is that someone that can relate to the other group but when the goths, look at the druggies or when the popular group looks at the special needs group that we think we are nothing alike. why is it that we all cant get alone with each other. Why cant we just see that there is that one person in every group that you can relate to.... at the end of every day we are all just people.......... if we didn't have a lable or ideas of how the popular kids, or the goths should act then each group would think the other group was "weird"......... i just wished that we didnt lable people just by the groups they are in...... bc if you get to no the indivdual person they may not me who you thought they were

ya

so there isn't much going on right now just working every night and not getting home until midnight, then waking up at 6 to go to school or my other job.... i cant wait until my birthday bc I'm sleeping in and not worrying about a thing...... so this weekend was fun bc my jerk of an ex started talking to me again............ he asked if we could meet up this weekend and return our stuff back to each other and say our final goodbye........ i don't no if i should meet up with him because my current boyfriend wants to meet him bc he doesnt trust my ex with me alone and i told him that i wasnt going to be alone bc i would have my best friend with me.... i just dont think it is a good idea four them to meet bc of everything that has happened and the reasons why we broke up.....

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So i told the person that needed to no and now i am so glad bc we have gotten even closer now and i wish i wasnt SCARED in the first place bc everything tried out fine..... now its my family isues to worry about

Should i or shouldnt i

So i am withholding a huge secret from someone extremely important to me and i have to decide if i should tell them... however if i do tell them it may destore him... but if i dont and he finds out from someone else it will hurt him even more.... we have never kept anything from each other before and it is killing me now not being able to tell him..... but if i tell him then we may never talk again because of what the secret intels...... and i dont think i can take that either...... my best friend says that i should just let it be...... but i just dont no if i can do that ....... what should i do tell him or just let it be

family do u have 2 love them

ever since i was little i was always told that blood is thinker then water. this past week i was told that a family issue has been brought up resonlly. it has been around now for a few years but because its a sore subject we just never brought it up during family events. Well its now out in the open and the one thing that i was most passionate about getting because it was rightfully mine i cant get because my aunt wont allow it. i told my family that i would buy it from my aunts and uncles but my family just says to leave it be. should i just leave it be or should i claim whats rightfully mine? i hate this situation

How dare you

I love you.. you know how you are.you made my life worth living for. you made me feel like i was the only one in the world and then you dumped me like yesterdays trash. How dare you!! you said i was the only one in the world you would ever love and then i found with "her". now i am sitting here with my heart bleeding and my eyes all red. how dare you kiss her and say i was the one besides she was my best friend...

Hey its me

Hey everyone its me i just started this blog and i really don't no what to say. Just so you can get to no me i and a fun, loving, and caring person. Most people in my life now doesn't realize the painful past that i have. i was dealt with allot more then most people should in a lifetime. However my past defines me and make me who i am today and i wouldn't change anything at all. I think that the society we have today is the worse its ever been because of all the fighting we have in the world. Well ill write back soon

kendra