this is my final post that i will ever do im soo glad because that means school is almost over with and that college is near i will definitely miss the friends that i made at school but i no there is more too come... i will no longer have to look at the people who despise me and i will not care what they think of me anymore.......... im soo happy............. good riddance Central High School

i am sooo excited that school is almost done i will not miss this school i will only miss a few teachers and a few people im just ready to move on with my life and start a new chaper i wish that the final week would go by faster. im moving far away from here

new outlook on things

i have always been the kind of person that likes to help everyone solve there problems. even if they stab me in the back later on but just recently I'm feed up with everyone stabbing me in the back and acting like they don't care.. Or they only use me for a ear so they can vent.. Someone was talking to me a week ago and told me that i need to help people just not let them bring me down that i need to defend myself and stand up for what i believe in... before i would just say that I'm fine with it and let them walk all over me... but not anymore I'm am not going to let anyone stab me in the back.. i will listen to them but I'm not going to let them bring me down

the weather

i love the smell of the air before it rains.. the smell that is like no other smell.. the humidity is so heavy that you no in less then 24 hours it may rain. and when it finally starts to rain it gives you a sense of hope that everything will be ok because everything is washed away... the weather we are having now is crazy one day its extremely nice then the next is really cold.. one day its really sunny the next its raining... some people thinks its global warming others don't.. i think that allot of the changes in the weather are because of global warming..

new outlook

do you have a place that you love being at. like a room or a park. in this place do u feel safe, or warm, is it around here or is it five hundred miles away? Do other people no about the place or is it your secret place? When do you go to this place, is it when you need to think or get some anger out. i think that everyone has a place, a place that you love being at or just love the thought of that place. maybe you have two place.. but my question to u is why is that your place??



restively i delopmet a new on its quiet its sercure and that were i do most of my thinking these days.............

the new arrival in my family

my sister is pregnant and im very excited because that means that i will be an aunt again and i cant wait she is due in November a few days after my b-day and the baby will be here when my brother gets married however the bad thing is my other sister kris is getting marred in October and that means that Kim can't travel so she will miss Kris's wedding.. kim and brad (brother-in-law) doesnt care what it is but i hope its a baby girl

prom

im soo excited prom is less then 2 weeks away however that also brings up the fact that our last few weeks as high school students are almost over. to be honest i think that all of us are going to miss it weather or not we admit to other. we all what to start our life and move on. but for most people it scares them to think that they will be leaving all of their friends and a sense of childhood behind. i no that I'm ready to graduate and move on... but the question is are you scared or are u ok with moving on???

....... my job.......

stressed im losing my job bc they r closing there doors at my job in and now im on the hunt for a new one... i really dont want them to close bc its an awesome place to work at the people are great the customers are awesome.. i made some great friends there and im really going to miss the talks we all have at lunch and the stupid pranks we play on each other.. this will probably be the only job that i will miss.... o well when one door closes, another one opens

"life as it happens"

my brother Kyle is getting married and im in the wedding which im very honored to be asked. however it also brings up the fact that we are so close and i rely on him for allot... but since him and Tricia (future sister in law) has moved in together things have changed and i am trying to adapt to them its just im afraid that once they are married and his life with Tricia is in full swing that our talks that we have and our relationship will suffer... or at least be allot different im just really nervous bc this week has been really hard and he hasn't been around for a while..... i guess what im saying is i wish that somethings wouldn't change

okk

ok so there has been allot that has happened within the last 48 hrs and idk if i really know what to do. i am supposed to go see a friend but she has hurt me and back-stab me so many times that i cant trust what she says or does around me. there is more drama then normal and i really want to scream at the stupid people that are creating the drama.. i was very sick last week and still feel like i wont be able to ketch up on my work that i had that week.. im really busy and stressed

does one life make a difference

have u ever wondered if u mattered? like if u would disappeared would u be missed? does the people around u or the people that u talk make a difference in your life? do u make an impact on the people around you? does one person make a difference or does the world even care about you? when u walk in the hall way at school do people look at you, talk to you or do u feel like one more day that ur there is one less day that u have to be there? does one day or one hour make a difference in you life? do wat u say or do make a differents to others around you? would the world change if you werent there or never was there? before my senior year i loved high school because i had friends i was never a loner and people knew and loved me i made a difference in their life i new that everyday i was here i was needed.i new that having friends older then u would be risky but i did it anyway. now that I'm a senior all my bestie left and I'm here to graduated alone i no that i will never be alone bc we always stay in contact and hang out on the weekends. i want the smile that i had on my face when i came into this school for the first 3 years of high school. i just really wish i wasn't invisible in this school.

life

i enjoying the nice weather however the nice weather brings graduation i cant wait til graduation however I'm scared about wat life brings after graduation.... i want to become a counselor but the hard work and dedications that comes with it will be tough but im ready.... i just really wish i new the outcome of wat my life will become... bc when i thing about life after high school it really really scares me

new soda

i just found a new soda that i liked at dk one night at work my coworker asked if i could get him a soda and that i should try it... now i no that the name kinda doesn't sound good but it is extremely good.... its grape vanilla Sprite... i love this coworker to death bc he always knows what to say to make me laugh and i try and help him with his problems that he has... i always hatted workin bc i new that if i messed up no on would help me feel better... but when i work with him and another back-liner they always no what to say to make the night go by fast and we alway find a way to have fun....

feelin the love

nothing new just me and my everyday drama that never seams to stop but i am stronger bc of every thing and everyone in my life............. i am so greatful for the people that care about me and i would do anything for them

work

i really need a new job before summer bc i am trying to buy a new car and save for college so if anyone has an idea let me no. i really would like to stay away from the fast food area


any ideas.....

.........

i just realized that i hated you all along,
the way you made me second guess myself,
"your two fat" those words ran through my head every day,
you made me so insecure about myself,
like i was never good enough for anyone not even you,
i thought i was in love i thought you were the one,
now i no that your the one that's scum, not me
your the one that doesn't deserve to be happy,
your the one that made me always cry myself to sleep,
well guess what
i hate your guts and i don't need u

bc i have the greatest friends in the world that saved me from you

life.....

so i was offered to move out of my parents house and into an appartment with my friend it scares me bc on some level i want move out and stand on my own two feet but on the other hand i think that if i save my money now and get an appartment a year from now then i will be better off... i really want to move out and start my life... i just really dont know wat to do..... there is alot to think about and so little time to think